Rich Mullins "Hold Me Jesus"

Rich Mullins probably had as much influence with my Christian life during my college years as anyone else. So it was tragic to hear of his death in the fall of 1997. There are few things I remember as clearly as the moment I heard the news from a friend as we prepared for our daily Ultimate (Frisbee) game. Yes, I said daily. And I said Ultimate. 
Rich had an influence on countless folks in his lifetime and even 16 years after his death, many people are enjoying the gift God gave to him. The ability to pen such powerful songs and to be so transparent. You'll see this transparency in the performance below. He didn't hold back. He reminds me in many ways of the Apostle Paul.
If you'd like to read more about Rich's life please visit his fan site page KidBrothers where you can find all sorts of good stuff about Rich. 

"Hold Me Jesus" by Rich Mullins

Well sometimes my life just don't make sense at all
When the mountains look so big
And my faith just seems so small
So hold me Jesus 'cause I'm shaking like a leaf
You have been King of my glory
Won't You be my Prince of Peace
And I wake up in the night and feel the dark
It's so hot inside my soul
I swear there must be blisters on my heart
So hold me Jesus 'cause I'm shaking like a leaf
You have been King of my glory
Won't You be my Prince of Peace
Surrender don't come natural to me
I'd rather fight You for something I don't really want
Than to take what You give that I need
And I've beat my head against so many walls
Now I'm falling down I'm falling on my knees
And this Salvation Army band is playing this hymn
And Your grace rings out so deep
It makes my resistance seem so thin
I'm singing hold me Jesus 'cause I'm shaking like a leaf
You have been King of my glory
Won't You be my Prince of Peace 

7: Day 27

So the self control/will power has now left me. Getting down to the end and I'm ready to move on from this project. It's been a good thing for sure but it's time. 28 days is plenty, in my opinion, to gain everything you can from this extreme diet. We are hosting a small sleepover for four of our oldest daughter's friends for her birthday tonight and so we've been working 24-7 on lists and cleanup and shopping for this 'party.' It's very simple mind you, just a couple friends coming over mid afternoon to play, make some crafts that my fabulous wife has come up with, play some more, make some pizzas in our kitchen, play some more, maybe watch a movie if there's time and go to bed. But...it's the end of 7 and we're making personal pizzas for all the girls and my wife has given me permission to make one for myself as well. Well, that thought has given me permission (from myself) to fudge a little.

For instance, my son and I had to pay a visit to our local Goodwill so I could get a few items of work clothes for my trip to Guatemala coming up in a week. Well everyone knows that the Goodwill is right near the Chick-Fil-A that has the red door. I just thought he'd love that red door and we needed to go. Of course I justified it saying I was still having chicken and potatoes. I didn't factor in the lemonade we had to share. Anyways, I'm slowly falling off the wagon. Still had my usual peanut butter on toast for breakfast and multiple apples today but I'm really looking forward to that pizza tonight.